"Have I did the best, Lord?" is my big question in my mind, now. I do believe with a quotation which is familiar in our ears "Do your best, God will do the rest" and that question still filled my mind. Maybe I thought that I've did the best, but those weren't the best in His eyes.. :)
I confessed, I almost said "I give up".. but my heart said, when I give up it means that I am the looser.., loose before fight! hahahhaha... :D Am I too naive? maybe.. :)
I've ever thought that I wasn't as lucky as others. They got their success easily or smoothly, but not with me.. Praise God, I have someone special who always reminds me and supports me when I get upset, dia mengingatkanku bahwa ada orang yang mempunyai masalah yang sama, bahkan mungkin lebih buruk dari yang aku alami... kadang saat saya terlalu terpuruk dengan kondisi saya, dia menggunakan kata-kata yang pedas untuk mengingatkan saya.. hahahha, emang pedas. Tapi saya juga membutuhkan kata-kata pedasnya untuk menampar saya dan membawa saya to the reality,,.
My family also has a big role in supporting me... especially my super mom. She always knows my mood and can guess the reason of it.. :) Dia mendengarkan marah-marah saya (biasanya kalau saya super jengkel, harus ada pelampiasannya, which is ngomel-ngomel sendiri ga jelas, hahahaha..hahha) dan menanggapinya hanya dengan 1 kalimat "sabar, dikejar lagi."
The last but not least, thank you for my besties, nana, carmen, icha, nora, apos, gamblis, plenyik for the support (your support was uncountable for me, ha..ha..ha..)
mereka ini sangat pintar membaca mood saya dari wajah saya, jadi sebisa mungkin mereka tidak membahas something which is disturbing my mind.. ha..ha..ha..
ya.. ini lah pasang surutnya kehidupan.. terkadang kita jatuh, sakit, dan pahit. tapi tanpa itu semua, kita ga akan tau arti dari sukses, sehat, dan manis..
I know, He always holds my hand and never ever let me fall..
Praise Lord.. :)
